Procrastination - 2

11)      Giggling over the things in the weird and wonderful world of Ann Summers.  Particularly the reviews of sex toys.  People say really the weirdest things.

12)      Searching things in an incognito window  that I knew that I didn’t want to search, that I knew would leave me feeling weird and losing faith in humanity, but thought that I might as well look up “in the interests of thoroughness”  And no, I won’t tell you what I  searched.  Believe me, it’s for your own good.

13)      Looking up symptoms that I have on medical websites.  I’ve found that since starting my medical course I tend to either come to the conclusion that it’ll sort itself on its own, or that I have a brain tumour/gallstones/some sort of heart conditions/most mental disorders.  Never underestimate your own ability to hype things up in your mind.

14)      Mourning what could have been.  What I could have been, what I could have become, what doors are now closed off to me. 

15)      Looking up things that I could do other than medicine.  Currently the plan is wait tables or an equivalent until I have the money to start a patisserie.  I will bake and cook and sell my knitting and other crafts and I will write in my spare time.  Either that or sexy librarian.  Or maybe switch to a palaeontology degree.  In all seriousness, I really like dinosaurs.

16)      Doing my make up/my nails.  This is made more ridiculous by the fact that I currently live in a house on my own since everyone else is at with their families.  THERE IS NO ONE TO SEE MY BEAUTY.

17)      Play viola.  Try to get better at the bass.  Sing.  Not really relevant at the moment because the house is too cold for my fingers to do what I want them to.

18)      Decide to go to the library in the afternoon.  Get ready for the library – this involves showering, packing your revision, putting on appropriate clothes, packing different revision because you don’t need to cover what you’d originally decided on, finding snacks to take with you and filling a water bottle, repacking your revision AGAIN.  And then oh look the library closes in an hour not that much point going after all.

19)      DRINK ALL THE WATER.  I have started drinking more water than can possibly be necessary.  I don’t understand why.

20)   Make coffee.  Drink coffee.  Remember why I try not to drink so much caffeine.  Try to sit still and fail.